Thursday, October 7, 2010

Connor I love you and I will always miss you...

Amazing brother and Friend!! We love you Congu!!

Well as many of you may have heard my beloved younger brother Connor passed away on September 25th. When the whole thing happened I went into complete despair. I didn't know how I was going to make it through this. But just having a knowledge of the gospel is enough! I know that I will see you again Connor, and I can't wait for that day. I can't wait to see the Connor that we all knew. Families are together forever. I want to dedicated this to him. I have so many memories with him that I never want to forget.

First of all Connor had a heart of gold. He truly did except everyone for the way they are. He never passed a judgment on anyone. Connor you are in everything, and don't think that your family will ever forget you. When me, Clinton, and Connor were young we used to play this game where me and Clinton were horses and Connor was our master. I know it sounds funny, but we sure enjoyed it. One time me and Clinton put Connor in a closet and locked it, and told him Santa clause would come to get him and it was only July. Poor Connor! But he seemed to like it.
I will never forget the times me and Connor had together this past winter. I came home to families for 3 weeks for Christmas break. Me and Connor went salsa dancing! He was always talking about how he wanted to be able to do it. We had a blast learning together. I cherish that time with him. We would work out together all the time over that break at Gold's gym, and he would always make me push myself harder, especially with those planks! Oh and if you have never had a Connor hug then you have never had a real hug. He would always pick me up and swing me around! I miss his hugs so so so much!
Something that he would always do that would crack me up was that he would bark out of no where! It sounded like a small pesky little dog, and it always made me jump. I sure miss hearing that...I also loved when he would call me late at night for no reason. He just wanted to talk about life and I loved it. I think everyone can remember that he was and will be forever called CONGU SMALL FIST!!! The name fits him perfectly.
So I was looking through some of my things and I found a small piece of paper in my scriptures that stated some of my goals for the year. Me and Connor where together at church during the new year and that is when I wrote them. Connor wrote down one goal for me and it is to find a sexy husband. Connor I have yet to accomplish that, but one day I will! Please send him my way okay!!
Congu I miss the days when you would show me some of the new music you got. Remember the time when you showed me the new Muse CD and we jammed to it in your car while still parked in the drive way! I also have come to love the band "Them crooked vultures" because Connor introduced them to me! They are amazing! If you haven't listened to them before you should!
Well I can tell ya what...Connor was amazing at guitar...he inspires me to keep learning...I can't wait until I am as good as him. I like to think of him rocking it out up in heaven! I will be there rocking out with you before you realize buddy.

Families are forever!

Congu I miss your crazy laugh that always made me laugh! Remember the times where we laughed at those old spice commercials!


Congu I miss your amazing smile that could light up a whole room!
Like I said a heart of gold!

Something else I loved about Connor is that he was always changing his hair! Just notice in the pictures.

Connor you are my baby brother! I regret not spending more time with you these past 6 months, but know that I really do love you with all my heart. I wish I could of helped him, and hope that I did in some small way. I will never forget our times together. I am grateful that I at least got 19 years to spend with you...The Family misses you...please stay near...
My advice is Love your family like they are the last thing you have left...Tell them you love them every day because you never know when they will be gone...and then you may have lost your chance.

3 comments:

  1. I am so sorry for your loss Candice. If you need anything let me know.

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  2. Candy you are one of the strongest people i know :) I hope you got our flowers. thanks for being such an example to me and i hope that if you ever need anything, you call your good pal mindy up and we can either talk about it or not talk and simply laugh if you need a good laugh. i love you so much candy and i miss you!

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  3. love you so much lady!! you're strong and tough and are an example to me for that : ) love and miss you. call if you ever need anything!

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