Day 4

So a habit I wish I didn't have is that I constantly have to check to make sure I have my cell phone and keys because I am paranoid I will lose them. It's kind of ridiculous and I waste too much time checking to make sure I have them. ha ha...this is kind of a funny blog but I enjoyed it.....

A picture of me and my friends

thug, pirate, rockstar, amazing baseball player, and 80's baby.....

So we just had halloween! I thought I would put this awesome picture up of me and my friends in our costumes. I love all these girls so much. So glad I got to spend Halloween with you!

Day 2

So what is the mean behind my blog name?
Well first of all Congu small fist is my brother Connor that passed away September 25th, 2010. It was very recent that this happened. I miss him alot. We have called him Congu small fist for a long time. My cousin Donovan gave it to him many years back. If you knew Connor you would realized that this name fits him perfectly. He was one of the funniest most random people that I ever have known. He always made me laugh. He will always have a piece of my heart. As time has gone on it has gotten easier to realize that he is in a better place. But I will always miss my baby brother, and a piece of my heart is locked away for him forever. I can't express how much I miss him...Well that is the reason for my blogs name.

Day 1

So fifteen interesting facts about myself:
1. Well just like this picture I enjoy being a little crazy
2. I talk alot
3. I love monkeys, and I would love to have a pet monkey someday
4. I want six kids
5. More than anything I want to run a marathon someday
6. I could live off of burritos...
7. I want to go to another country for a while and volunteer as a nurse...
8. I love singing at the top of my lungs while I am driving alone in my car
9. I love romance and hope to one day have my own love story
10. One of the first things I notice about people is their teeth, I think a smile can tell alot about a person
11. I love to dance
12. Family always comes first for me
13. I would love to live in the time period of "Pride and Prejudice." I love the way they talked; it is so eloquent and romantic
14. I love when people play with my hair
15. I am the type of person that will tell others what I think and how I feel...

so there it is...fifteen random facts about myself!

Wheel of the World.....

So my roommate Danielle shared this quote with me and I thought it very fitting for the season....

"What is it like to be a child of God?
It is like being a pumpkin
God picks you from the patch, brings you in, and washes all the dirt off of you.
Then he cuts off the top and scoops out all the yucky stuff.
He removes the seeds of doubt, hate, and greed.
Then he carves you a new smiling face
And puts his light inside of you to shine for all the world to see."

I really like this. God does help us to get all of the bad stuff out of our lives, then he helps us to shine forth our light to all mankind.
I love Halloween and am getting so excited to dress up. But even more I am so excited for Thanksgiving, and will be excited to show my thanks to everyone, and more than anything my Heavenly Father.
Well life is good...I can't complain. I may not have everything I want in life right now, but I have enough and I can't complain. I have a wonderful family, fantastic roommates, a great ward, a good job, and many many more things. The world is like a wheel that doesn't slow down and in the blink of any eye your whole life can change. Life keeps moving regardless of whether we want it to or not. So my motto every day is to live life and love it!! Find something to be grateful for every day.

Connor I love you and I will always miss you...

Amazing brother and Friend!! We love you Congu!!

Well as many of you may have heard my beloved younger brother Connor passed away on September 25th. When the whole thing happened I went into complete despair. I didn't know how I was going to make it through this. But just having a knowledge of the gospel is enough! I know that I will see you again Connor, and I can't wait for that day. I can't wait to see the Connor that we all knew. Families are together forever. I want to dedicated this to him. I have so many memories with him that I never want to forget.

First of all Connor had a heart of gold. He truly did except everyone for the way they are. He never passed a judgment on anyone. Connor you are in everything, and don't think that your family will ever forget you. When me, Clinton, and Connor were young we used to play this game where me and Clinton were horses and Connor was our master. I know it sounds funny, but we sure enjoyed it. One time me and Clinton put Connor in a closet and locked it, and told him Santa clause would come to get him and it was only July. Poor Connor! But he seemed to like it.
I will never forget the times me and Connor had together this past winter. I came home to families for 3 weeks for Christmas break. Me and Connor went salsa dancing! He was always talking about how he wanted to be able to do it. We had a blast learning together. I cherish that time with him. We would work out together all the time over that break at Gold's gym, and he would always make me push myself harder, especially with those planks! Oh and if you have never had a Connor hug then you have never had a real hug. He would always pick me up and swing me around! I miss his hugs so so so much!
Something that he would always do that would crack me up was that he would bark out of no where! It sounded like a small pesky little dog, and it always made me jump. I sure miss hearing that...I also loved when he would call me late at night for no reason. He just wanted to talk about life and I loved it. I think everyone can remember that he was and will be forever called CONGU SMALL FIST!!! The name fits him perfectly.
So I was looking through some of my things and I found a small piece of paper in my scriptures that stated some of my goals for the year. Me and Connor where together at church during the new year and that is when I wrote them. Connor wrote down one goal for me and it is to find a sexy husband. Connor I have yet to accomplish that, but one day I will! Please send him my way okay!!
Congu I miss the days when you would show me some of the new music you got. Remember the time when you showed me the new Muse CD and we jammed to it in your car while still parked in the drive way! I also have come to love the band "Them crooked vultures" because Connor introduced them to me! They are amazing! If you haven't listened to them before you should!
Well I can tell ya what...Connor was amazing at guitar...he inspires me to keep learning...I can't wait until I am as good as him. I like to think of him rocking it out up in heaven! I will be there rocking out with you before you realize buddy.

Families are forever!

Congu I miss your crazy laugh that always made me laugh! Remember the times where we laughed at those old spice commercials!


Congu I miss your amazing smile that could light up a whole room!
Like I said a heart of gold!

Something else I loved about Connor is that he was always changing his hair! Just notice in the pictures.

Connor you are my baby brother! I regret not spending more time with you these past 6 months, but know that I really do love you with all my heart. I wish I could of helped him, and hope that I did in some small way. I will never forget our times together. I am grateful that I at least got 19 years to spend with you...The Family misses you...please stay near...
My advice is Love your family like they are the last thing you have left...Tell them you love them every day because you never know when they will be gone...and then you may have lost your chance.

People......

So right now I am sitting in my room listening to music, and really just thinking about life. I don't know how many people actually read this, but I am just writing to write. I was just thinking about how people come into your life, and then all of a sudden they are gone. You can't quite figure out if you miss them, or if you are glad they are gone. Life takes you for twists and turns that you never expect. This is for all those people that have come and gone in my life. Everyone who has come and gone has made an impact on my life, and has made me who I am today in some way. I feel like I have so much growing to do still, and that I learn something new everyday. I believe that everything really does happen for a reason. I am grateful for every person I have met that have made me realize that I can continue to learn and become better. This is for those friendships that you never thought you would lose. There is one that you will never lose though and that is the Savior. He is my hero, friend, and older brother. I know where I am going, and my path is clear when I follow his example. If only we were all perfect like him, then maybe we could all get along no matter what our differences. Thank you to those people that have always been there for me no matter what..:) I am eternally grateful to those friends and family members who have always been near at all times. Life is precious, and don't waste a minute of it. Life is to be enjoyed so that makes me grateful that people either come into my life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime!!!